The Search Continues

2008-10-20T11:22:21+02:00

Did'nt take me long to neglect my blog then did it? Oh dear.
Well the job search continues with very little progress. I sure picked a bad time to be unemployed (and i still dont understand all this cash crisis crap). Then again it could just be media hype thats making everyone panic and making matters work. Its hilarious really, how some people react to things that might possibly have a slight chance of happening. Like when they forcast snow, you go down to the supermarket theres not a loaf of bread or pint of milk in sight. Even all the flour and yeast gets sold. God forbid you dont get your slice of toast in the morning (And if people are making their own bread, are they buying cows aswell?)
Anyways the jorney for a job continues. And with every rejection, or no news at all, my confidence shriks. Which makes me annoyed with myself because i should'nt take it so personally, but hey, thats just me. So after a tearful and stressy week last week i'm back on form and feeling fine.
It's , my 20th birthday in 2 weeks and I'm having a joint party with my boyfriend the following week which will hopefully be f'ing awesome. I just want one of those epic nights where there are no fights or tears, just everyone letting go of their inhibitions and having a good time. And i love it when people let go, you find out a few things you never expected and there's usually a bit of naughtynesss in the mix.
Alcohol is a curious thing. I think its healthy to get drunk every now and again, enjoy the feeling of not caring and having the confidence to act differently and say things your too shy or scared to normally. It's sad that it takes you to be intoxicated before you can reveal parts of yourself but maybe thats how it should be.
Well i went of on a tangent again there. Signing off for now, keep smiling.

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2008-10-07T16:52:36+02:00

I'm new to this blogging business so im not sure how to start. Like this i guess. Well i don't know if these will ever get read, maybe i don't mind. Its an online dairy really to vent my feelings.And who does'nt want to tell the world what there up to in the hope someone may be interested? Theres no harm in it. In fact reading about the lives of others is fascinating. Having an insight to a complete strangers life is quite a privlege and can be inspiring.
So if anyones interested out there I'll tell you a bit about myself. I'm nearly 20, i'm unemployed and currently going through the ordeal of interveiws in the hope someone will take me on. The plan is to work for a year or so and go travelling with my boyfriend(of just over a year). I still live at home, in a smallish town where. It sucks sometimes because if you bump into someone and don't know them personally..someone you know will. This can be annoying beacuse you get the feeling everyone knows everyone else's business. However it can also be kinda comforting as there is a underlying feeling of saftey for anyone who lives here.
Im one of the few people in my peer group at school who didnt go to uni, and the friends that are left, though few, are my closest.
In the blogs to come i'll expand on the finer details of my friends, boyfriend and what i get up to.

So back to the present. My life feels like its on hold at the moment, until i get a job. Money is a major factor..on doing most things in life really, which is a shame. With all my friends in jobs theres not much to do for me but try to find things to do at home, look for a job and wait to meet my boyfriend in the evenings when he gets off work. He's a podietrist think i spelt it right) and graduated from uni this year. But yes it's hard to really live in the moment and plan fun thigns to do when you feel so resticted. And i hate not feeling like im living my life and just drifting. `It can't last forever so i remain positive and plod on.
Should get a phone call from my latest interview tomorrow or thursday..so figers crossesd and i'll let you know how it goes.
x

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